FYH Chapter 8

FYH Chapter 8

I won't!

EPOV:
Why did I think that I could do this? Why did I think that I even wanted to? What the HELL made me think that this was a good idea? Yes, I know it's childish but I didn't see any harm in hiding in my bed. I'd be hiding under my bed but it's a hotel and that would be just way too gross and disgusting.
"Come on Edward, you need to stop this! We need to make a decision." We had come to Salt Lake City yesterday and immediately went to look at the three vehicles that we were interested in. Now we had to decide which one to buy, what options we wanted, colors, and how we were going to pay for it. Not to mention which one of us would pay for it or would we split the cost in half. The list of questions that Bella was demanding that we answer seemed endless. My head was hurting from all the questions flying at me from Bella and I was so completely overwhelmed and I didn't know what to do. So I was hiding in my bed. We are talking under the blankets with a pillow over my head.
They were all nice cars. But I didn't know how to make such a big decision and I just wanted Bella to decide what we were going to get and just be done with it. But she wasn't having any of that. No, she was insistent that I be part of the decision and that I get what I wanted too. I knew that her reasoning stemmed deeper than just getting a car we both liked. She knew what I liked well enough to do that on her own. No, this was about me taking control and making the decisions that affected my life for once. To learn not to let others push me into anything I did not want.
I really wanted to tell her if that was the case then I wanted to run away before my brother got here too. I only agreed to meet with him because Bella said it would be rude not to. I was excited at first, because I do miss him, but now I am scared. The what if's kept flying through my head. What if he's mean to me? What if he's mean to Bella? What if he tries to guilt me into coming home? I didn't think I be able to hold my own with him if he started pushing for me to come again.
"I swear to God, Edward, if you don't sit up and take part in this I am going to have them specially paint it hot pink with flowers all over it!" That got me to sit up at least.
"FINE!"
"It's not like you're making a life or death decision here. We are just picking out a car together. Now, which one did you like the best?"
"I don't know. I liked all of them."
"Edward." She fell back on the bed in exasperation covering her head with the pillow.
"You know, couldn't we both hide in the bed together and forget about all of this? Preferably in a naked state?"
"If you don't start helping me make this decision it is going to be a long time before you see me naked again."
"The Journey. I liked the Dodge Journey."
"See, now was that so hard that you had to have me on the verge of an aneurism and a stroke for the last two hours."
"I'm not good at this. What if I am wrong and it's a terrible car and you don't like it then it will be my entire fault. And then we'd be stuck living with my mistake and…"
"Edward. It's a car. If we decide that we don't like it for what whatever reason, we can trade it in for something else. And besides I wanted that one too. Now what color do we want? I liked the black."
"I liked the silver one."
"Ok. I liked the silver too, but I also liked the blue…Did you want the sun roof?"
"Yes. My car back home has a sun roof and I really like it. That is a must. The blue one was nice too. What about that remote starter thing the guy was talking about? Want that added?"
"I don't know, Edward, is it necessary?"
"Bella, the reason we are getting a new car is that we are going to be traveling in winter. Do you want to be the one to go out into the cold mornings to start warming the thing up or do you want to be able to just walk to the window in our warm room and push a button?"
"Well, we you put it that way a remote starter is an absolute necessity."
"Ok, that's settled. But there's still the issue of the color. I like the silver and the blue. I just don't know which one I like better. Can we wait and go back and look at them both again. Maybe drive them both to see which one we like better?"
"That sounds like a good idea actually because I'm not sure which one I like better either. Now will you please get naked and come to bed with me." I wasn't above begging, not one little bit.
The next morning brought on a new round of anxiety. Emmett and Rose were arriving today. When Bella suggested that we asked them to come along to the dealership I must have turned green or something because she looked alarmed and backtracked.
"You know, Edward, if you really don't want to see them we don't have to. I'm sure they'll understand if we cancel or maybe just I could go. Just…you decide Edward, if you really don't want to do it then don't. I don't want to push you into anything you don't want to do or that you are not ready for."
Was I being that much of a baby that she'd offer to go alone just to make me feel better? Canceling was not an option either though. Emmett had done his share to hurt me too, but I couldn't cancel. I wasn't a cruel person, spineless yes, but not cruel. I knew that she was just trying to give me an out. But there wasn't really one now.
"We'll meet with them but I think, maybe, could I wait to think about inviting them to the dealership. Let's see how things go first. Ok?"
"That is absolutely fine, Edward. Whatever you decide will be fine with me."
"I guess that means that I have to get out of bed and shower now, huh? Want to join me?"
"Edward, you and I both know that if I get into that shower with you we will never make it out of here. Now get going!" She gave me a kiss and walked over to her suitcase to pick out an outfit to wear while made my way into the bathroom.
A couple of hours later we were standing in the hotel lobby waiting for them to show. Seeing as we still had only the bike we all decided that it would be easiest to meet them at the hotel.
I saw them before I heard them, which is surprising when it came to Emmett. He's always been louder than he is large and that is say something when it comes to him. Bella was standing by my side when they came into view, holding my hand. As soon as they saw us Emmett came barreling over towards us, shoving me out of the way and grabbing Bella in a crushing hug kissing her on repeatedly on the forward saying "thank you" over and over.
Rose walked up to where we were, looking at me where I was still sitting on the ground, a little stunned at being knocked down. "Are you just going to sit there all day or are you going to get up off your ass and hug your favorite sister-in-law? And Emmett, put that girl down, the word terrified doesn't even begin to describe the look on her face."
As I stood up Rose grabbed me into a hug, "I am so happy for you, Edward, and proud. We all are." And I knew then that all my worrying and fretting about how they were going to be when they got here was for nothing. Things were going just fine.
We went into one the hotel restaurants, Spencer's, for lunch. It was a little awkward at first, Bella still looked a little scared of Emmett at this point and no one really knew where to start the conversation at the moment. But Emmett found the perfect ice breaker.
"So, Bella, you ride a bike huh? But are you a true biker babe?"
"What do you mean?"
"Well, to be a true biker babe, you have to have leather, whips, and chains?" Rose chimed in.
"Well, I have the leather, no chains, unfortunately, and as for the whips, only in the bedroom and do you really want to know more than that about your brother's sex life?"
Emmett smirked at her, and then looked at me, "I like her. She's spunky!" And I couldn't agree with him more. That is why I loved this woman so much.
"So, tell me more about this trip? It sounds exciting to me?" Rose asked her.
"Well, my parents never had much money and never got to travel outside Washington. They always told me that they wanted me to get out of Washington to see the world and explore beyond our little town. So, after I got the settlement, I decided to do just that. I felt it was like honoring their last wishes for me, you know?"
"I completely get that. Do you know everywhere you guys are going to?"
"Oh no. Nothing has been planned." I went on to explain to them about how we just pull out the computer and research the next state to see if there is anything interesting we want to see. Like our next destination is a brewer's festival in Cheyenne Wyoming.
"So tell us about the wedding? Where was it?"
"We got married in Reno Rose." And then Bella and I told them all about the wedding. Neither of us could miss the way their faces fell when Bella told them how I made sure the Webbers were there for the wedding.
"I'm sorry I didn't…" I started but Emmett interrupted me.
"Edward, I am not going to pretend that anyone isn't a little hurt at missing your wedding. We are. But we also understand. We all did so many things to hurt you. Thing we said, things we did, and things that we didn't say but should have. I am glad that things did go down the way that they did and Rosie didn't have to go through with her plan." I was shocked to hear that she intended to tell all our friends and family that she and I were having an affair and she was pregnant with my child. That she loved me enough to humiliate herself and risk her relationship with Emmett to get me out of that marriage. I could feel the tears forming in my eyes.
"I never thought that…I thought you two hated me for what I did."
They both sighed and Emmett looked at me. "We never hated you, Edward. We were angry about being separated and Mom's behavior just made it easier to blame you for it. It was never your fault. You were ten and got lost because no one was watching you as closely as we should of."
Emmett and Rose apologized for all the times that they made me feel bad and were mean and hurtful while I was growing up and I accepted their apologies. Then we talked about lighter subjects for the rest of the meal. We talked about the night of our parent's anniversary. I told them about the basket that Bella and I had made for them at the ranch that we were just at. We showed them the pictures of the wedding and Rose gushed at Bella in her dress. We laughed out butts of when Emmett showed us the pictures of Tanya and her sisters after MY sisters got through with them.
There was so much to forgive and I knew that I was ready to forgive my brother. I knew that it would be easier to enjoy our trip and grow more confident if I let go of the past so I was going to try my hardest. I still had things to work on with my sister and parents, but that would come with time.
"What are you smiling about?" Bella asked me suddenly looking at me with the most breathtaking smile of her own.
"Blue," was all that I said. It was all that I needed to say.
A/N:
OK. Things are getting really busy right now. But I do have new hours at work that should hopefully make life easier. It's streamlining my day and getting me out earlier. I am sorry if things were repetitive of previous chapters I tried to keep that as minimal as possible but it was unavoidable. They had to have something to talk about at lunch. Teaser will be posted at Just a Sip, fictionators, pictease, and my blogspot Bransonstories101. Also follow me on twitter as Branson101 and Facebook as Princess Sam. Have a great week! Oh and the Cheyenne brewer's festival is actually held in June but since it is October for this story and October is the month of Octoberfests and beer I changed it to suit my needs.